Here is a picture of Rand and his "Wacky Grandpa" at the award ceremony that I told you about in a previous post. Isn't he getting tall!?

Recent news

My husband posted yesterday about feeling stretched thin. There have been several things pulling on us lately. In our attempts to meet our family's needs, our personal needs, our marrital needs and help our friends' (our chosen family) it has become a bit overwhelming. But! Last night my husband and I sat in bed and watched TV together. We had a good conversation about what happened yesterday and I found myself content and peaceful. I am thankful for the relationship that I have with Chris. I can not imagine not having him to lean on, and be leaned on by him.

It is interesting how God works. In the midst of this time of giving, God has brought something from my past into my mind. An event that I had forgotten about, but was still effecting the way I think and react. God has started healing me of a violation that is now 14 years old. The fear, self-hatred, and shame connected with this violation was clinging to me. I thought that I had delt with all of that stuff a while ago, but there was more hiding in the crevises of my emotional being. And while it has been a painful and uncomfortable process, God knew that there was still some junk that needed to be cleaned out. Chris and I went and prayed with N from church yesterday and it was really good. I am grateful to have a God that will push me into the uncomfortable in order to heal me. This will probably take a couple weeks or processing, but I am well on my way.

Brag Time

So as you all know, my eldest son Rand is in 6th grade this year. In Apple Valley, 6th grade is part of the middle school, so many changes have come our way. First I just have to say that Rand has done exceedingly well! I am very happy for him and very proud of him.

One of his accomplishments was just awarded him this week. All of the 6th graders in our school district (6 middle schools) had to write an essay about a grandparent or adult friend. Rand wrote an essay about my father titled "My Wacky Grandpa Silvers". 50 essays were chosen from each school and sent into the Senior Citizens something or other, and then they read and chose two from each school, one boy and one girl, to receive the "grand prize". Well, I bet you can guess where this is going, Rand won!! We had a nice ceremony on Tuesday and each of the kids got to read their essay to the group. Rand did a great job, of course, and I was very proud. I'll see if I can figure out how to upload a picture... I've never done that before. If there's no picture, you'll know that I haven't figured it out! Thanks for reading about my little boy!

Where have I been?

So about 2 weeks ago I got sick. Started with an upset tummy and runny nose. The tummy got better but was replaces by an increasingly bad cough. Now the whole thing has become a full blown sinus infection and this morning when I worke up my eye lids were swollen! My goodness. I hate to ask whats next. But all of this to say, I've been busy resting a lot lately and haven't been online at all. Sorry.

I have started dealing with an event from my past. The stuffed emotions and fears are bubbling to the surface. God has interesting timing. I really thought I was doin' pretty well there! But Last night, when I'm sick as a dog, it all boiled over. God is good. So is my husband. So is my Mom who came over at 12:30am to pray for me. Maybe someday soon I'll be ready to write about it more. Until then... Ciao!

Wow! It has been weeks since I last posted! Life has been FULL of things and people needing my attention and love. I am continuing to learn what it means to wholly rely upon God. I comprehend what God's protection in our lives looks like. I am also learning how to care for others and be there to give someone else support, and do it through God's love and power rather than trying to give out of my own shallow well. It is amazing to me how God is able to give to us without ceasing! He has more than we, the entire human race, will ever need! He does not grow weary! The hard part is letting Him supply all that I need and not turn back to myself to make things work, or to comfort someone out of my own heart rather than out of God's amazing love.

When I find my self weary, or having nothing left to give, I realize that I was working out of my own power again. God, please renew me, and let me dip into your well of life rather than trying to do it on my own.

I lift my eyes up,
To the mountain.
Where does my help come from?

My help comes from You,
Maker of Heaven,
Creator of the earth!

Oh how I need you, Lord!
You are my only hope.
You are my only prayer.

So I will wait for you,
To come and rescue me.
Come and Give me Life!

This is my prayer. This is my desire. That I may walk in the house of the Lord, forever.