So I went into my Internal Medicine Doctor yesterday to check up on how I'm doing. She comes into the room and asks me how I think I'm doing... Never a good sign...
Well, I think I'm doing okay. I haven't been keeping up with my Lantus (long acting insulin), but I've been tryihng pretty hard on the Humalog (fast acting insulin). "Well, it's not good. Your last A1c was at a 9. This one is over 13."
I am shocked! I thought for sure it hadn't gotten worse! I was hoping for something better! So we go through all of the regular stuff. I know what I have to do I just don't be able to do it. But my good friend D. had a great suggestion for me. I take Ambien at night to sleep. If I don't take it, I don't sleep. So I don't forget to take my Ambien. If I take my Ambien and tape it to my Lantus, that will remind me every night when I need to take my insulin. Why haven't I done this before? Well... I have my meds by my bed now so that I take them as I'm going to bed and my morning ones are right there ready to go in the morning. Once I'm up and going about the business of the day, I forget to stop and take my meds. So I wanted to put my Lantus by my Ambien. But Latnus HAS to stay refrigerated! DUH! Take the Ambien to the Lantus! It isn't like I can say, "Aww, I don't want to get up and go out there to take my meds. I'm too tired, cuz I can't sleep without them! I don't know what I didn't switch that around years ago.
So... A big thank you to D. You have made my life easier, and healthier, and probably added life to my body.
Going back... "13!" I can't believe it. I'm in shock. I didn't even know what to say. So I'm going back the end of June and we'll see if I have been able to change my numbers. The hard thing is that this isn't a change for three months... This is a new way to live my life. This is a new decision every hour of every day. Do I test now or later? Do I have a cookie that was set out for a light snack? And if I do, do I take the 2 units of insulin to cover it? It would be easier to forego the cookie. Do I go on the walk with my neighbor? What's my blood sugar right now? Will I drop during the walk? Should I eat a quick granola bar? Then how much insulin do I take for that bar? I'll be burning off some of the carbs with the exercize... And we won't even mention what a woman's cycle does to my blood sugars!
Well... You get my point. I haven't been living the life I am supposed to. I need to be more meticulous about my diabetes care. I guess I still struggle with denial at times. Does that ever go away? I hope so. I think I go in phases now. Hopefully this will be a good phase that will stretch out a LONG time. :) So look for my new A1c level in June. We'll see if I go up or down. (BTW, A1c is your longterm bloodsugar levels. They want my A1c to be under 7. Chris has told me that if that happens I get to have another baby!!! as in thats how likely it is that i'll get my A1c that low. :()
Okay, I'm not sure if I can still put coherant thoughts together as my Ambien is really kicking in now. So, night-night!
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We are such different thinkers. See, your husband's deal to wait until you're at a 7 or below to have another child didn't seem to me to be "like that'll ever happen (sarcasm)." It seemed to me more of concern - that he's willing, but he wants you as healthy as possible as the last 3 pregnancies were tough on your body and you need to be in peak condition to make it through one more. It's that half-empty, half-full, needs a refill philosophy - I'm definitely a 'needs a refill' gal!
Also, 7 SHOULDN'T be that tough (says the girl whose lowest ever was an 8.3 back in 1998!) I was looking over the numbers, and really, we both should be able to get there. I'll be your cheering section: You go, girl! I KNOW you can get there - you have before. With D.'s FABULOUS idea, you will be there within 6 months, you just watch! That's my goal as well, so maybe we can cheer each other on.
Serenity.... You're wonderful!
Hey, Serenity. I'm so proud of you. I watch both my boys deal with the numbers and I love what Rob's diabetic team always says. It's just numbers. They're a way to evaluate whats going on in your body and then adjust the insulin accordingly.
At support group, I've seen parents cry deep, painful tears because their kids ignore their diabetes. I know I can't understand the issue from your point of view, but I can tell you as the parent of two diabetics, I'm proud of you that you are trying to take care of yourself. These earthly bodies don't always cooperate, but the effort you put forth is appreciated by your family and friends.
Serenity... You're beautiful!
Shari
Your welcome S. I hope this has been working for you. Somewhow I doubt that Chris' is hoping it'll never happen. You see, you are just one of my favorite lady friends and not my wife -- and I would love to know that you are going to be around a long time: I cannot imagine how much more amplified that feeling must be for your Chris.
You guys fill me with warmth and joy. Thank you for the words of love and encouragement! I can't tell you how much it means to me.
So far things are going really well. I'll keep you updated.
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